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Quite a lengthy post....

Good evening, guys and gals. And now, on with the show...

Man was I ever sick on Tuesday. I couldn't even talk properly. For example, in my Social Studies class, we have been talking about AIDS in Africa, and I was talking about condoms. Unknownst to me, I kept saying "cannons". Mass confusion ensued. I did not feel confident enough to drive home, so I sat in the back of my classes until 3:30, and then drove. I went to sleep at 4 p.m. And, except for quickly throwing some stuff together for the substitute teacher and the occasional repositioning in bed, I did not get out of bed until Wednesday at 3:30 p.m. Today, I felt stoned. My speech was back, but I alternated from hot flashes and cold sweats, while I bumped into objects.

I spent a bulk of th morning trying to figure out what new germie I happened to pick up. Then the reasoning came. Actually, it curbstomped me while proclaiming "Well, DUH!" It all made sense; no wonder I was all wonky.

I'm a drug addict going through withdrawal.

I had downed my paxil from 40 mg to 20 (2 pills to 1) a while back (due to various reasons, none which are pregnancy), and this past weekend, I forgot my pills at home when I was on my brief stint to the City. So, I thought this would be the time that I "quit".

Don't quite understand why this would rock my world? PAXIL (paroxetine hydrochloride) is an orally administered psychotropic drug. Studies at clinically relevant doses in humans have demonstrated that paroxetine blocks the uptake of serotonin into human platelets. In vitro studies in animals also suggest that paroxetine is a potent and highly selective inhibitor of neuronal serotonin reuptake and has only very weak effects on norepinephrine and dopamine neuronal reuptake.

In other words, Selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors (SSRIs) regulates anger, aggression, body temperature, mood, sleep, vomiting, sexuality, and appetite. True, I gained over 30 pounds and lost most of my sex drive over the past 2 years, but I felt okay about that. *roll eyes*

All you ever wanted to know about paxil at http://us.gsk.com/products/assets/us_paxil.pdf

So, as I'm waiting for my next doc's appointment, I have been combating crazy dreams and an influx of emo-like daydreams. Plus a sex drive that flicks on and off more rapidly than a strobe light. Bet you really wanted to know that. *grins*

Back to basics. Talk with my doc. Recentre myself and try meditation again. Perhaps seek a mental health worker.

Oh crap, who am I fooling? At the present moment, I'm trying not to puke while typing this. The rest will come later. From my vast learnings at drug workshops and such, it takes about 2 weeks to get over physical dependencies from most drugs. One week down, one to go.....

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dreamfilled
Jun. 4th, 2007 03:19 am (UTC)
Thanks. You know what would help me a lot? A postcard.... *snickers*

BTW, I'm enjoying your new user pic!
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