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Happy September and Happy Pills

Yet again, it's been awhile.

The current news in my life at this moment is the introduction of happy pills. For those just tuning in, depression runs rampant on my mother's side of the family. I have been battling depression for over 10 years now. It usually happens 4 or 5 times a year, lasting about a month or so. I sleep 12-14 hours a day, find it very hard to concentrate, become emotionally sad or numb, etc. Buuuuuuuuut... dealing with this so long, I have developed strategies to "ride out" these times and live a somewhat normal (normal for me *grins*) life.

Then I thought of Baby J.

Baby J needs to have a safe, secure, and loving household. Not only would I not be able ot help out as much as I normally do at these times, but I would be scared of what it would do to him. You can tell he's kinda got a skewed perception of women from the experiences he's had with his mother (bouncing home to home, less-than-friendly boyfriends), and I don't need to add to that. It was mainly for him that I went to the doc, and started on Paxil a few days ago. So far, so good... but only time will tell.... *shrugs*

School is going great! What a difference having some time to prepare makes! My class is a wee small (only 7 students) due to scheduling chaos at the main campus, but by next week, I should be full. No headaches thus far in this department of my life. Besides waking up Heavy D at 7:45 a.m. every morning when I'm ready to go out the door. *snickers* Poor guy.

And yes, my car is still in the shop. Something about a few sensors going. I made myself a deal that if it was over $1000, I would trade it/sell it/ set it on fire and figure something out. But, it wasn't that much (just as much as, coincidently as my bonus cheque for returning this year *yay*), and we are going to do this mambo for a little while longer....


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Sep. 9th, 2005 04:27 am (UTC)
proud of you
Good for you. It takes courage to take the happy pills, and I'm proud of the sacrifice you are making for your family. I'll try to call this weekend.
Sep. 9th, 2005 03:10 pm (UTC)
I hope everything works out for you. In all departments.

Bo Beri
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